Saturday, July 24, 2010

What defines failure and success?

As of my last post there were so many question marks still in our lives. I'm happy and sad to report that change has blasted into our lives this week! Ummm, yeah, crazy how life puts you on hold for so long and then BAM!

Yes, you read it correct, in just this past week; The couple unit is officially no more (not saying the word).... I began a new kitchen design job for a company other than the one I owned  for the past eight years, AND the home we're currently in has been signed off on and sold.

Now the mad search is in full speed ahead mode for a new abode. It's all so freakin scary, exciting and wicked sad. The logistics will be a living nightmare, but God is good, and we've had struggles before and will easily get through this final stage.

Ethiopia is coming back stronger and stronger in my mind. The closer I get to the end of this chapter, the closer I get to wanting to dive into what my passion is... what I feel motivated by, what I feel God wants me to do, to serve others. It's just going to take a lot longer to get that on the plate than I thought. Which I've come to terms with. The need will be there even if it's two years before I can put my body and mind around getting back there or doing something here....

One things that breaks my heart is the fact that I've basically left the blogging community that was so powerful to me for so long. I've stopped reading the daily updates, and frankly don't know what is going on in most lives of the people I fell in love with during our adoption process. It is one of my goals (at some point) to reconnect and become part of the blogging family once again. It was such a source of wisdom, strength, and faith for me. We all helped each other along the way. And I miss seeing all the families I came to love along with all the beautiful children as well.

One thing we can always count on in life is constant CHANGE - and as scary as it can be, you have to stand up and not just "take" it, but say;  "I WILL do this... and I WILL be better from it".

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Update 101...

It's been a bit since I've posted. There are reasons. One, I'm too busy on FB writing silly updates or taking down mobsters! I need my distractions people, cut me some slack! :)

There have been several things going on in my life that haven't been blogable, but I think the time now is ok to tell you all what's happening in this neck of the woods.

Many of you already know b/c of FB or because you are part of my life. We are selling our home, yes, the one we just moved into mid December because our family dynamic is shifting. I can't say the word still in written form. Our family will soon consist of two households though. So we've been trying to sell the house and find two new homesteads.... not an easy task.

Because of the economy (housing) my kitchen business pretty much hit a wall last year and I haven't been designing. Obviously with the turn of family events (that began in January, actually last October) I need to find work. Something that is NOT working out well. I only have one talent. I've been a kitchen designer for nineteen years. It's all I know how to do, and do damn well I might add...

For the most part my chin is up. But boy when the moments hit, they hit really hard.

The kids are fantastic - healthy and happy. So for now, until I do find a job we are enjoying our pool and the summer sun.

That's the update - I may start another charity:water campaign with videos again... :)