Wednesday, October 20, 2010

More than a Glimmer of Hope - It will be done! Please join the campaign!

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This is just me, Lori. But below is all copied and pasted from Emily's other blog w/Glimmer of Hope. This is my new cause. Please watch the video and start spreading this around. This goal is big, and I know it will take no time to meet! I'm so proud of my friends. Thank you God. It WILL be done!

We just got back from Dube Bute Kebele, where Eyasu spent the first two years of his life. It’s hard to begin to describe just how overwhelming the experience was. As we look back on the day, and all of the ways that the Lord has worked in order to get us to where we are, I am overcome with excitement at being able to finally kick off this campaign.

The need in Dube Bute is extreme, 4200 people are living in heart breaking rural poverty. But, by the grace of God, we are going to be able to address every aspect of need in the kebele. Water, Health, Education, Veterinary Services – they will all be part of this campaign. Our goal is to raise $284,000, which will provide the necessary funding for a complete transformation of Dube Bute. While the need is extreme, there is hope…

Today, the people of Dube Bute collect their water from muddy, contaminated, unprotected spring sources or from dirty open wells in the town center. It’s unsafe, it’s unlivable, and it’s unacceptable. But we are going to fix that. This campaign is going to provide the funding for 10 spring protection developments and 8 hand-dug wells. These 18 water points will provide the community with clean and safe water.

The health post that we saw, if you can even call it that, is a two-room building with nothing inside. There were no medical supplies, no tables, no chairs, no hospital beds. Nothing. The new health post, on the other hand, will be fully stocked with all necessary health care equipment. One of the eight hand-dug wells will be located just outside the building, providing clean water to the health post. Additionally, the existing health post will be renovated into a two-room residence for the health care workers. This means the community will not only have a new fully supplied health facility, but they will also have health care workers living on site.

On the same compound as the health facility, will be a veterinary clinic. Dube Bute is a very rural community. As we rode horses into the kebele center, we passed dozens of cows and goats and sheep. The livelihood of many of the community members depends upon the health of their animals. We are thrilled that we will be able to provide a veterinary clinic to ensure the health of the animals upon which these people depend so dearly. Placing the veterinary clinic on the same compound as the health post will mean that it, too, has access to the clean water from the hand-dug well. The entire population of Dube Bute – people and animals alike – will be able to access health care in one, centralized location.

As the parents of 6 children, education is something very important to Moody and myself. Our hearts broke when we saw the existing school. There are currently more than 800 children who attend school in seven old, dilapidated classrooms. Seven. Not only that, but their education only goes through the 6th grade. This is going to change. We will add eight new classrooms to this campus (in two school buildings) to provide the students with brand new, fully furnished classrooms facilities. Once these classrooms are complete, the community will use the existing buildings to add on a 7th and an 8th grade to the school. What a beautiful example of collaboration and cooperation. The result? The first complete primary school (1st-8th grade) that Dube Bute has ever had. As part of our commitment to bring 100% clean water coverage to the community, one of the eight hand-dug wells will be located on the school campus, allowing all students access to clean water during the day.

We are thrilled to be getting started with this campaign, but we can’t do it alone. We need your help! We will be posting photos and videos from our incredible trip soon and will continually update you with news from Dube Bute. So please come along with us on this journey as we step out in faith.

There is Hope for Dube Bute…

P.S. 100% of all donations go directly to projects in Dube Bute. Even the PayPal transaction fee is covered by the Glimmer endowment

Campaign Details
Status: Running
Campaign Type: General Fund Raising
Targeted Project Type: Wherever its needed most
Village: Dube Bute
Target Amount: $284,000
Donations: $19,320.00

Thursday, October 14, 2010

True Blood ~

True blood is one of my favorite shows. Yes, I have a thing for vampires. No clue why, but I'm not alone so I don't feel like I have a problem...

But this post is about "True Blood".... what does blood mean? What does it mean to you? Some people (Italians and other nationalities) feel that blood is thicker than water. That is such a dichotomy for me. Because my family is my life, and two because water is my love.... So, I guess that blood and water are my passions. Period.

Not only blood and water, but serving. Serving to those in need. My life has been a struggle for the past year. And it's time, now that we have our own home to start to regain connections with Ethiopia and the community.

I don't want that to sound like Nicholas isn't a huge part of this journey. He actually has a larger heart for Ethiopia than Tessa Bezu, right now.

The divorce (finally wrote it) is starting to show it's ugly head with the Tessa. Tessa Bezu is starting to have meltdowns. Why wouldn't she? So many changes in such little time. Her recent behavior has been shocking to me because this change in our lives began last December... And she has adapted so easily to everything thus far since coming home, until now.

I'm not surprised. I can't imagine the pain and grief and loss that she's gone through. And now, it's happening all over again (for her). The past few drop off's (daycare/school) have been nothing short of disgusting.... I haven't seen her temperment like this since we first met her and she didn't want me/us to touch her. The violence in her came back out when they tried to pull her away from me. It was impossible to hold back the tears and it brought me back to when she didn't want me AT ALL..

They kept saying, "she'll be fine, just let go".... then I looked in Tessa in the eyes when they were pulling her away from my arms.. I couldn't take it. I said,  "NO she's not going through this again (at my hand) I'm not leaving her here, this way". I told the teacher;  "I've seen this face and reaction before", we left. There was no way I could let her be ripped out of my arms hysterical. Kicking and screaming. She doesn't do that normally, so I knew that this was different, and needed to be treated different (by her momma)...

We got in the car, (me bawling hoping she didn't see)... and I brought her to daycare, she was seeming fine...

We got out of the truck, everything was good, we'd talked about mommy coming back etc... Then it happened again, but worse.....I was literally ready to call my boss and quit my dumb ass job. Seriously, does my baby need to be here ALL this time while I work almost as a volunteer? NO!

I had no choice but to leave her, but would not let them take her from my arms. I put her down, crouched and hugged many times telling her I'd be back soon (which wasn't true because I worked til seven). I said to her, "I'm your Momma and ALWAYS will be, I will see you later..") It killed me. She said she was scared I wouldn't come back..... Needless to say I walked into work a mess. And it continued for quite bit... After an hour I called and they said she was "better". I was hoping for "great, normal, fine".

Blessing in disguise - I thought I wanted to start my business up again... I have my motivation. I need to be here for my kids a lot more, and of course make money to support us and so I can become a part time/stay at home mom... :)

So, as a single momma of two, my main goal is finding balance. For myself and my children. One of the reasons for taking a hiatus from FB. I'd rather blog every few days or less, and keep up with my adoption peeps. New goals, new priorities... Thank You Lord.


Me again...

Quick post (at work right now) to let my blogger friends know I'm on FB hiatus to focus on family, and other things. So I will be blogging instead FB'ing! Much more productive and cathartic. PLUS I want to connect and follow you all again in writing instead of status updates! I'm eager to start fundraising for June 11' trip to Ethiopia!!! ;)

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

It doesn't go away - how foolish of me ~

Tessa Bezu and Ethiopia will forever be connected. And I love that. I try to use the little Amharic that I learned during our wait. We talk about Ethiopia, but not too much. I honestly think that some people over do it with the cultural aspect. I am Sicilian and Greek. There are aspects of my life that represent that etc, but my life doesn't revolve around it. And for me, it would be wrong to plaster my entire home with anything and everything Ethiopian. BALANCE! I believe that is key.

Sadly because of this past year, there hasn't been the balance I planned on having with her. We haven't gone to Ethiopian restaurants, events, actually nothing other than talk about Ethiopia at home and look at pictures. I'm ashamed of that, but can finally admit it because it's all going to change soon!

Here is the grit of this post.... because of the extreme changes in our lives Tessa is now rejecting everything that has to do with Ethiopia where before she embraced it and would get excited when we talked about visiting in a few years together.

Gee, I wonder why.... NOT. Mommy went from being basically a stay at home Mom other than a few hours a day at pre-school, now Momma has a full time job, Daddy and Mommy don't live together, we have moved once already since she came home. That was only nine months ago, and we're moving again.

So, the other night when tucking her in I said "betam "Eh wed eh SHAH lehu" (I love you very much)..... my baby started to cry and said; "NO"! I don't want to talk Amharic, I don't want Ethiopia. We talked about it for several minutes, I questioned, probed to find the reason behind it. She just kept saying she didn't ever want to go back there and didn't want to speak Amharic. :(

I left her bedroom and cried. What a failure. I know we will recover together, but it sucked. I cannot wait until she is ready to embrace Ethiopia again. She's obviously reacting to all the changes in her little life and deep down the pain from the past are emerging.

Cannot tell a lie - as a parent - makes you feel like shit. But who cares about my feelings. The most important feelings are those of my babies. And I will make up for all of my shortcomings. We will get back into a routine that they get used to with me working. And I will refrain from ET talk with Tessa for a bit.