Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
I should have learned my lesson and just bought the whole series when I ventured out but I didn't. Later that day I hit Amazon for my purchase of the next two in the series as it only took another three days to read New Moon.
Breaking Dawn did not disappoint and I was all bug eyed reading most of it - especially Isle Esme!
It ended up taking me two weeks to read all four and the last one was over 700 pages. MP LOVED my obsession because it kept me off his back and gave him plenty of weekend time to watch whatever he wanted on TV at night without the typical compromise/bickering! No pestering about how long the lawn was going to take, no nagging about taking us out to lunch! None of it! I was 100% committed and even read while cooking dinner for the little monsters.
And now, Cool Jules is going to a post production party because her husband Marshall worked on the film! Tonight she may very well meet some of the actors from the film. In short, I hate Julie!
I'm never like this and haven't had a crush on a fictional character since Don Johnson in Miami Vice, and Tom Cruise in Risky Business (around the eight grade - I'm almost 37 now folks)... I feel like a twelve year old and almost cried when I finished the last book. I've even resorted to re-reading Twilight while cross reading the Midnight Sun book which Stephenie Meyer wrote (partially) and posted online only. Midnight sun is Twilight from Edwards perspective (love it.)
Twilight the film opens on November 21st and I'm trying to decide how and with whom I was to see it! I hope Michelle or Rhonda get around to reading/loving it too so we go together. Rhonda, I still owe you dinner and a movie, remember!!!
I need to be stopped! My obsession is out of control! There! I admitted it, I feel better.
And if you don't have anything nice to say, don't leave a comment! :)
Thursday, October 23, 2008
What are the chances??!! It was a wonderful first night out for MP and I since coming home and what better first date could we have had!
They're currently doing a small tour doing presentations and fundraisers.
We stayed in Awassa one night while in Ethiopia and it's the closest city to where Tessa is from!
Again, what are the chances of them coming here and us having a strange connection through friends that we just found out about! We met the co-founder John McKay and his lovely Ethiopian wife who are expecting a child in April. They plan to go back to Awassa to live and raise their child after the tour and continue to grow their campus.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Auntie Cindy met Tessa and I out for Pete-i-za! (Pizza)
Yesterday we spent the day in our PJ's ~
Monday, October 13, 2008
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Of course I love sharing pictures of us home etc. but I have to do these posts every once in a while for my own sake more than anything.
This house, yes, this house is where my daughter spent the first three years of her life...
The birth family visit is something I can't get my head around. It was all a fog, and so surreal. I don't know what I'd do without the precious video of it to remind me of every little detail and the way they looked at me so curiously, trying to get in every detail of us. There were many people (about twelve) all inside their modest but fastidious hut with a dirt floor and fire pit in the center for cooking. The walls were mostly lined with school papers and newspapers all pinned up as if they were wall paper, edge to edge, seam to seam. The beds (one of which we sat on during our visit) were made of branches and covered with blankets. It was just one room, just one.
We had a tough time meeting Tarikua... really tough. And I'll admit, love doesn't always come, even with a child who isn't trying to tear your neck to shreds! What I'm trying to say is while we had a tremendous turn around with Tarikua at the airport coming home and ever since, we settled in here at home and things were great but not like now. It has been awesome to watch our lives intertwine with hers to become a family. The first week home it kinda felt like babysitting, everything was new and a surprise to learn her. That's basically what you do, you learn one another. While I loved her, I wasn't in love with her.... that's hard to say and I hope you don't take it the wrong way.
About two weeks ago something shifted in me... it was huge and I remember thinking several things as it was happening. It was slow but within a few days... I just felt this incredible tug every time I looked at her. Like I do with Nicholas, like I feel that "I can't live without her" feeling... I crave her hugs and her body is no longer new to me and has become so completely and utterly average! I don't need to stare at her beautiful fingers as much or look at her hair or any of that, she's just my average kid! Beautiful and mine! I know every detail and I KNOW HER! To know her there's only one thing that can happen, to love her, every single bit!
I had this feeling and heard the words but it was actually true now, "she is my daughter." And it feels like that, it feels that way so strongly I have no words.
Towards the end of our birth family visit with Tarikua's mother one of the questions we had for her was; "how do you want us to raise your daughter?" Her reply, "she's your daughter now, raise her as your own".
It broke my heart to hear her say that. How tough she was ~ she had decided the future for Tarikua, her daughter, and it was to be...
What a blessing and a gift to have had this birth family experience for Tessa, my daughter. She's a daughter to both of us ~ from one end of this beautiful earth to the other, she has two mom's.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Partners in crime...
Even Snoopy felt sick and tired during the debate...
While driving today I looked in the rear view and saw this. So I whipped the car to the side of the road and grabbed the camera always at the ready in my purse! This was for real, not staged!
Bye for now -