Bella, our sweet girl and other goings on~

Bella... baby.


Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Author unknown...

Swimming in the "big" pool at school/camp/daycare! He is edible!

Soccer duds, so cute!

Well blow me down, Lor's doing a post! Have I ever been so quiet?? Maybe when this whole "blog" thing began last July I was, but not since....

We haven't gone anywhere and I'm still blog checking, but have been less than enthused to write. I just don't feel like there's anything "new" to post and how can you follow the referral posts??!! :)

Everyday my emotions and mind is in a different place, actually it changes by the hour! Don't get me wrong, I'm elated! But if you know how my twisted mind works then you know that I don't always look at the bright side. I'm sort of like waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like I'm on a game show and someone's going to come to me and say (guest show voice), "well, thanks for playing Lor, you came sooo close but I'm afraid you didn't win"! Make sense? This is only part of the time though. The rest of the time I'm worried about passing court in time and where my Bezu is. I must say, I have a really good feeling about court, really good.

I pray to have new photo's of her soon - when the next travel group from WHFC comes back. They leave next Thursday/Friday! I can't wait to see her smile!!!!!!!!! Families from the last travel group didn't recognize her picture, that makes me sad. There's a reason, but I don't want to get into all of the details. She is fine, she was at a third house that WHFC opened (I think).

In other news etc., I've been bustling to get her room done! Man, IT IS PINK! It doesn't go with the rest of the house (at all), but I LOVE IT! We're getting new carpeting soon and the bed is being delivered any day. After I post the pics. of the room you're going to die when I tell you where I got the stuff and how much we paid. Damn I'm good! We had to return a bunch of small clothes after I learned of her measurements and got some new ones. Shopping for girls is FUN.

Every time I close my eyes I dream of Africa and of HER. I can never see her face, it's just a glow, kind of like a picture way out of focus... and she's running and playing and she's pure beauty. My stomach comes up to my throat just writing it and now I'm tearing up! See, I'm a freak!! It's so real in my dreams....

I've been trying to work on the Amharic, very slow progress is being made, but it's progress! Stacy - HELP! I'm a moron with this stuff! There are almost ten words MASTERED! WOW, that's pathetic!! :)

MP has been in Sweden all week :( but is just about on his way home (in case some psycho is reading this) and will be home "soon"?? Also, I have a gun in my nightstand and I'm a damn good shot! See, I am a crazy right wing nut job! You wouldn't want to take the chance that I'm being sarcastic, really... The bestest part about MP going away is that Nicholas spends the night in our room! I absolutely LOVE IT! Last night, around 9:00 (he was already in my bed and was supposed to be sleeping while watching Food Network). I hear (from the top of the stairs), "Mom"! Me, "yesssss, what's up Nick, what do you want". "I need to talk to you", he said. So I go to the base of the steps and he's at the top with his hand on his puny little hip. He goes, "Mom! I've been waiting for you. When are you coming to bed? It's time to come to bed now"! I bolted up the stairs and scooped him up in my arms and threw him on the bed. I smooched, and smooched him! It was adorable! I am so lucky to have him, I love having a son! It's incredible. Of course, two days before I wanted to leave him in the middle of Kohl's shoe department during an absolute meltdown. I don't know how security wasn't called he was so out of sorts. I wanted to curl up in a little ball. That's what happens when you expect to shop with a child who just had a full day of running sports in the sun without any down time! My bad! Lesson learned! :)

Waiting after referral is easier in some ways but soo much harder in others. You have a face (thank you God) and some information, but it doesn't feel complete as I mentioned earlier. So, you just go along with it and step out in faith and move forward with planning for your child's arrival.

Last but no way near least. A big sad mention of the passing of a dear member of our family. Bella, Kiki's (my sister) doggie was whisked up to heaven last Friday night. We all loved her spirit and she's watching down on us now and playing with all the other beautiful doggie spirits that have touched our family's lives. She left as only a queen would leave, on the sofa, peacefully... Love you Bella, we miss you. She had a long, full life. Kiki is crushed~

Send her your prayers please!